Lead Me Not

Posted May 5, 2015 by The Book & Alcohol Girls in Book Reviews / 0 Comments

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This book may be unsuitable for people under 17 years of age due to its use of sexual content, drug and alcohol use, and/or violence.
Lead Me Not Book Cover Lead Me Not
Twisted Love #1
A. Meredith Walters
Gallery Books

In this dangerously sexy novel from the New York Times bestselling author of Find You in the Dark, a straight-laced college student meets a handsome but enigmatic stranger who lures her into an underground club scene, where she finds it difficult to resist temptation

Aubrey Duncan understands loss. She knows what rock bottom looks like, and she is determined to crawl back up to the top after the sudden death of her younger sister. She blames herself for her part in the tragedy, convinced that she could have done something, anything, to help her.

In her effort to gain redemption, Aubrey starts fresh at Longwood University and facilitates an addiction support group, hoping she can support someone else in the way she failed her sister. But what she doesn’t count on is an all-consuming fascination with group member Maxx Demelo, a gorgeous, blond, blue-eyed enigma who hides dark secrets behind a carefully constructed mask. He only reveals what he wants others to see. But Aubrey glimpses another Maxx hidden below the surface—a Maxx who is drowning in his own personal hell.

As Aubrey and Maxx develop an attraction too intense to ignore, he pulls her into the dark underbelly of the city club scene, where she is torn by her desire to save him and an inexplicable urge to join him in his downward spiral. Worst of all, she is beginning to love everything she should run away from—a man who threatens to ignite in her a fire that could burn her alive…

“Love was insanity at its most beautiful – a madness of desperation and desire that made the most improbable choice possible.”

This was a tough one. It was not an easy read. Not because the story wasn’t great. It was. In fact, it was exceptional. This was tough to read because it was honest. Raw and honest to the point of discomfort. Aubrey’s connection to Maxx is more disconcerting than Maxx’s connection to her. Logically, Aubrey understands that every choice she makes concerning Maxx is a bad one. She still cannot resist. Her addition to him is just as dangerous as his addiction issues. Witnessing this is brutal. Maxx and his issues are heartbreaking. His character is damaged from the beginning and only gets worse as the story goes on.

I have read a lot of reviews stating that the reader didn’t like Aubrey, but I cannot say the same. I don’t think we were meant to like or dislike her. We just needed to hear her story. Her undoing is so subtle that once you realize she is ruined, it’s too late. All along you know what she is doing. You don’t agree, but you get it. You shake your Kindle and you yell at the pages, but you keep watching the train wreck to see what will happen next. For me, it all made sense. Dysfunctional, desperate-for-a-connection sense. I was suddenly remembering every stupid choice I made for every stupid boy while I was in my early twenties. (Shakes head and moves on…)

”I wished things could have been as easy as holding Aubrey’s hand and skipping off into the sunset of our happily ever after. I really wanted that.”

Because Aubrey loses herself in Maxx, his chances of recovery are nil. I must say, regardless of his myriad of issues the sleeping in his own vomit thing, I loved this character. In fact, I think I knew him in college. He was a mess. Aubrey was a mess. Her roommate was a mess. Wait… it’s college. They are all a mess. No one knows who they are or what they want and it is all completely accurate.

This story was written as a duet and you will want the second book, Follow Me Back, immediately.

Summing it up: exceptional, heartbreaking, brutal, raw, honest, ruined, messy and utterly brilliant. I will read anything A. Meredith Walters writes. She hasn’t let me down let.

5 Stars and moving quickly into Follow Me Back to feel a semblance of reparation. Bravo, Ms. Walters. Maybe just a club soda for this series… 😉

Purchase Links
Lead Me Not (Twisted Love series Book 1)Follow Me Back (Twisted Love series Book 2)



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